Tuesday, November 20, 2012


Dear Baby,

You are 8 months old already. I can't believe how fast the time is going. It seems like just yesterday I was pregnant and you were just a far away dream. I look at you every day and still wonder if this is all really happening.

Sometimes I think my heart is going to explode when I look at you. I couldn't have imagined how much I could love you, even in my wildest dreams. I just want to stop time and hold you tight. Bury my face in your soft wisps of blonde hair, and breathe in your sweetness. 

Today was your first day at your new daycare. It was hard for me to leave you, but I have been working on it. I held my breath and kept the tears at bay as I put you in her arms. I smiled and waved goodbye but my heart ached. Time crawled the rest of the morning until I was finally able to go and pick you up. I walked in the door and saw you surrounded by other little ones playing contently with the biggest smile on your little face. Things are going to be okay.

Friday, October 5, 2012

My sweet baby. One year ago today I saw you for the very first time. I'll never forget that day. Sitting there with my heart pounding out of my chest waiting to see you up on the screen, terrified they were going to tell me you weren't really in there. The same heart pounding as when I saw the word pregnant flash on that test, when I saw your dad's face when they told us we were having a little boy, when the doctor told us you would be here in the morning, when I saw your sweet face for the first time. You were really in there, & I will never forget that moment of seeing your silhouette up on the screen. That same little nose I look at today.

Now, a year later I can't believe you are already 6 months old. I get to see your sweet face every single day, and I couldn't imagine anything better than your smile. I can't wait to see what the next 6 months brings us, and I am so excited to see you grow. I hope you always know how much you are loved and wanted more than anything in the world. I hope you always know that the day I found out I was going to have you was one of the best days of my life. I hope you always know that where ever your life takes you, I hope you can always come home and feel safe and loved. That I am always here for you, and want nothing more than for you to be happy. I love you baby boy. <3